"He's Still Working on Me"

You know when you pray for God to show you your weaknesses and help you become a more humble person He is going to answer that prayer. I know that I have a very proud heart and many may argue..."Who doesn't? That's life, that's your sinful self." And I agree, we are all born with a proud heart and with sin but it doesn't justify being a proud person and not asking God to transform us. For the longest time I was unwilling to surrender. I would justify it by thinking, "I have my rights, you know"... isn't that the battle cry of every American? So, I've begun this journey with the Lord concerning my proud heart. It's not easy. If you are in the same boat as me, you understand. I feel like the apostle Paul most days...when he says he does the things he hates but desires to do the things God has called him to (Romans 7:14-20). And the hardest part about surrendering to God aside from the actual surrender is the pruning and purifying that comes from the gracious hand of the Potter (at least that's my opinion). You know once you pray a prayer like the one I've been praying, God is going to start doing some major heart surgery and it "ain't gonna be pretty."
The most annoying part about being a sinful, proud human being is that even in the midst of the trail, you KNOW God is allowing this to happen and yet you STILL fail to handle the situation in love...even if you never say a word to anther soul, your heart is screaming, "I have my rights" or "I would NEVER do that." But the reality is I do NOT have my rights as a child of God and I am just as guilty for doing something rude or unloving as the next gal. I am so thankful to God for being so patient with me. I often think of the children's song, "He's Still Working On Me." That is how I feel most days! The words go something like this, "He's still working on me, to make me what I ought to be. It took Him just a week to make the moon and stars, the Sun and Earth and Jupiter and Mars. How loving and patient He must be, He's still working on me."